New Years Resolution-Write More Blogs!

In 2009 I wrote 14 blogs, compared to the 30 or 40 during the previous two years. My goal this year is to write more blogs.

School started for me yesterday. After 6 months off, part of me was thirsting for knowledge. The other part of me wishes that the hardest part of my day was still finding the time to watch "sportsnation". Between my time at school, work and studying I spend very little time with my precious family. This upsets me, in fact part of me thinks that this cannot possibly be fair. I attend a religious university that tells me that my family is the most important thing in my life (which it is). If this is the case, why not lighten the load a little bit? I remembered the answer today.

As the Lord sat crying, bleeding from every pore in the Garden of Gethsemane, did his load get lighter? No, not really. He was given strength from an angel, but ultimately he made the most extreme sacrifice in the history of the world. My load will not get lighter and I accept this. What I do not accept is failure. I grew up in a home with one of my heroes, my father. He is the reason all of us Visser children know how to work hard. He traveled often and for a couple weeks of every month he was on the road. He was and still is a fantastic father. It is the bitter memory of having my father gone for so many days that I do not want to lighten my load. I want to set the example for Weston that my father set for me. I want to feel the satisfaction that comes after success in the face of overwhelming odds.

My motto for 2010 is the following from the rap song "Soldier".

I'm a soldier
These shoulders hold up so much
They won't budge, I'll never fall or fold up.

I'm a soldier
Even if my collar bones crush or crumble
I will never stumble.